Wowwiw wow wow!

Woah so much has changed recently. Tyler got officially voted in as the minister which is a HUGE blessing! We had Thanksgiving dinner at our house for the first time. That was an adventure. And I got a job!

So Tyler got voted in. The church we are serving at is great. The people are great. The area is great. We have so much support and prayers it is incredible. The church family is so loving and welcoming. I have never seen one more so. We don't do the greet those around you thing in during the service (only because it took too much time for the congregation I was told) and I STILL have never felt as welcomed by a congregation before in my life. Even that very first time we came up here I was amazed at how welcomed we were made to feel.

Thanksgiving dinner at out house for the first time ever. It was quite the adventure. I cooked all day and mom and dad came over. It was fun and tiring. I think the worst part was all the left overs. Neither Tyler or I are very big on them but we have a ton of them left even after we gave some to my parents to take home.

Lastly, I got a job! I finish up my internship next week then I will begin subbing in a 4th grade classroom with another sub because I am a new teacher and everything. Then in January that classroom will be mine! I am a fourth grade teacher! Holy cow!!

This week...

has been so emotional. It has literally been a roller coaster since the first night of school on Tuesday until now. No wonder I am so worn out. I just hope that I can muster up the energy to get through tomorrow. It should be an easy day. Reading is testing, then math is a short lesson then in the afternoon it is fun friday and a stellaluna video. So really I just have to get excited for one lesson. I am just so heart broken for so many different reasons. Father please mend my heart. Be with those that are on my heart and those that are hurting. Help me to be the witness to you that I need to be. Help me to do what I need to do and to stay pure in your sight. Help me to not focus so much on me and my problems but to be there for others to comfort them when they need it.

Busy!

Feeling kind of worn out. I feel like I am doing SO much right now yet I feel like I accomplish nothing during the day. I know I do. I go to school and teach and stuff but I still feel like I'm not accomplishing much. Hopefully things will get better in five weeks when I am all done with my internship!

Lessons Learned (and still learning)

Sometimes I have a real hard time learning lessons. Like being in the real world. It's a hard, cruel world out there and we just have to get used to it. That is definitely not something you learn growing up. Sure your parents try to teach you but really, do you ever listen? I sure didn't.

I also am working through getting over this princess mentality of everything should be easy. I guess that I've been blessed through the years to have easy jobs. Working for my dad I have been able to work with my schedule and work around it so that I can do everything I needed to do. Not so in the real world. If you aren't there on time on probation that's it your out of there. So it's time for me to wake up and smell the roses.

Change is hard sometimes.

Had a much better day at school today! It didn't go perfect by any means but it was a better day by far. Math Lesson went...ok. Science was ok too. I just have to get the kids to listen to me when I teach. I think it will come with time but I also don't want to just wait for it to all 'fall into place' because I know that will never happen.

Anyway, I'll end with a quote from one of my students a few weeks ago: "Sorry I was late coming back teacher I was in the bathroom and it took me a long time because I was pooping." The way kids are so honest and transparent it great! It really makes me smile :)

AHH

Wow so much has happened recently. I started my internship, got married and am in the process of taking over subjects one at a time for my internship.

That isn't going very well in my opinion. I got a talking to on Friday and was basically told that if I don't start showing I have what it takes my teacher will get a phone call and I won't be able to do my internship. It's so frustrating to me because I don't know what I need to be doing and my teacher hasn't had an intern before she she doesn't know either. From now on I am going to just simply do everything and if it gets to be too much my ct can tell me then.

I'm also wondering what to do about a few of the students in my ct.'s class. She had a parent conference with on dad on Thursday. It didn't seem to go anywhere other than dad wants us to push him. I want to do everything that I can to help the student but I don't want to neglect the other 16 students either. I just don't really know. I never knew teaching was SO difficult. In classes and practicum's you really don't get a feel for it and that makes me sad. It takes so much to teach and  feel unprepared and like I can't go to my ct anymore.

Being married is great. I love being able to sleep next to my husband every night! I wouldn't trade it for all the money in the world! We have a beautiful home near the church that is within walking distance for my husband. It lets me sleep in until 5:30 and he can sleep until 7:30. It is such a blessing to be so close. It is also nice to be close but not super close to my parents. I love them and there are definitely days when I miss living in the same home, but, it is nice for it to be just he and I.